Story Of My Life

by Blue Bear

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Debut album of Blue Bear

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released February 25, 2017

Written and performed by Benjamin Boulin
Violin and cello by Lina
Recorded by Julien Bouvier
Artwork by Dominic Salmic

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Blue Bear Tours, France

After learning bass guitar and after singing in his first band created in High School (The Lost Children), Benjamin Boulin, a.k.a. Blue Bear, decided to create an acoustic side project (The Classical Dreams) with a friend (Richard Saunders : It Started at the Gym). Unfortunately, Richard has to live his life in England. Then, Benjamin decided to continue on his own under a new name : Blue Bear. ... more

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Track Name: My Anger
My Anger

I Know I'm losing
The control of my whole life
And I don't need you and your advice
Please leave me alone
And get out of my place
You're not welcome you and your disgrace

Oh, this is my anger
The home with no answer
Where the only dweller is a crow
Oh, there's no need to wince
Because here I'm the prince
Of a realm that will never fall

You won't forget me
Because we'll share nightmares
Your mind will fall into disrepair
Next time you see me
Remember what you did
Remember what you did to your kid

Oh, this is my anger
The home with no answer
Where the only dweller is a crow
Oh, there's no need to wince
Because here I'm the prince
Of a realm that will never fall
Ooooh
Never fall
Ooooh

(x4)
I know you're with me
I know you'll hate me

Oh, this is my anger
The home with no answer
Where the only dweller is a crow
Oh, there's no need to wince
Because here I'm the prince
Of a realm that will never fall
Ooooh
Never fall
Ooooh
Track Name: Is Love The Answer?
Is Love the Answer

I'm not able to love
The same way that you love me
Because I don't remember how to do so
You should know that I lost
My heart into the mountain
The day that I climbed it to fall from it
Now I can't even cry
Because my tears are all dry
And I don't think it will come back again
I just want you to answer
My only question
This only question

Is love the only answer to everything

I know I make mistakes
But this is not on purpose
I'm just not good with my relationships
It's because I have grown up
At least it is what I think
It was easier when I was a kid
I was discovering things
My eyes wide open to them
Looking for some new places to explore
Now I still need the answer
To my question
This fucking question
Track Name: Story Of My Life
Story of my Life

It's the story of my life
I wanted to tell you
A story I won't hide
I won't hide from you
It's true sometimes I smile
But it's only a mask
And every time I try
My head goes out with a blast

Oh I know
That I complain
But I'm sure
That it is pain
That I feel
Everyday
I will heal someday
I hope
Track Name: I'm Not So Confident
I'm Not so Confident

I want to find a way to live
Free as the wind
I want to find my way to be
To see, to feel
I can't believe I'll die one day
I don't want you to cry for me

If I close my eyes and fall down
Will you be there to catch me?
My family, for me, is gone
I need someone to trust in
I am not so confident

I'm not the strongest man on Earth
I wish I was
That's why I'm looking for some Strength
To be someone
Mother, sorry for what I am
I promise I won't misbehave again

If I close my eyes and fall down
Will you be there to catch me?
My family, for me, is gone
I need someone to trust in
If I close my eyes and fall down
Will you be there to catch me?
My family, for me, is gone
I need someone to trust in
I am not so confident

I want to find a way to live
And to die well
Track Name: I'm Begging You
I'm begging you

Am I meant to be alone
And come back to where I'm better
I just need to be home
To come back and become stronger

Look right inside my eyes
Tell me what you see
Am I losing my mind
Do you see anything wrong
Is there something good in me
No I won't be strong

Someday you will find yourself
It's something that I heard them say
But that's just a waste of breath
I will never find myself
What could ever change
It's not the dawn of a new day
I am sick and tired
Of fighting off for nothing
I want to retire
You know I understand
You try to give me a hand
But please just let me go

Just let me go
Please just leave me alone
Just let me go
I just need to be home

I'm begging you
Track Name: I Miss You
I Miss You

There's something I wanted to tell you
But I never could
You passed away before I knew
These walls were your last view
Last view, last view, and I cannot just forget you

You considered me as your brother
But I gave up on you
You needed help to be tougher
But your weakness wasn't you
Wasn't you, wasn't you, it was your friends and myself too

Now the only thing that I can do
Is to remember you
I cry my heart out 'cause I'm just a fool
And because I miss you
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
Track Name: Adriana
Adriana

Adriana
Why don't you come back
Why did you leave everything
Adriana
Why don't you use your weapon
To fight for anything

Don't make a mistake
Don't leave them alone
Just don't break up
Don't make them all cry
They love you to the bone
Don't say goodbye
No goodbyes

Adriana now you believe
That the sun is not burning for you
Adriana now that you live
What has changed
Turn back and tell them what to do

Adriana
It's not the end of the world
It can be fixed forever
Adriana
If you want them to say no word
So don't say that it's over

You can't go away
And saying that you're done
Anyway, anyway
Everything is empty
Now that you're gone
Are you ready, no apologies

Adriana finally came back
And has grown up to be someone new
Adriana finally came back for you
Track Name: Your New World Won't Be Mine
Your New World Won't be Mine

Hello,
Can you see me from the Earth?
Can you hear me? It's the birth
Of a new time, a new world
Where life is not just a word.

And I now, I know
That I won't take part of this game,
But I'll show my sorrow
For you to keep alive the flame.

The stars
Look like snow that endlessly falls
Or like christmas lights in a mall.
And the mood is the same today
'Cause life's starting a new way.

A new way
A new way
A new way

And I now, I know
That I won't take part of this game,
But I'll show my sorrow
For you to keep alive the flame.
And I now, I know
That I won't take part of this game,
But I'll show my sorrow
For you to keep alive the flame.

And tonight, in the sky,
You might see me floating in the air.
Now you'll all live your lives
And forget me and my despair.
Track Name: Dreams (Possible With You)
Dreams

I remember dreaming
Of my own future
I thought I'd be shining
Sooner or later
This was only a dream
I'm trying to shape
But today we need to scream
Before it's too late

But I know my dreams are
Possible with you
It will be difficult but
Possible with you
I won't give up because it's
Possible with you
And only you

I can't do it alone
That's why I need you
To escape from the unknown
And cary on with you
Track Name: Sick
Sick

I have traced on the walls
Some lines to recall
The days that are left.
I have so many scars,
Have battled many wars
That now I need to rest.
I have waited so long,
It’s like I don’t belong
To your life anymore.
Oh I don’t remember
How looks like December
Have I seen snow before.

What can I do?
What can I say
To be free?
I got nothing to lose
But everything to gain,
I can’t explain.

I have to take my pills
If I don’t want to kneel
Before all my pain.
I can’t think anything,
I can’t think of anything,
It hurts inside my brain.
Now I can only hope
That one day I will cope
And I will see the end.
I am sick of this noise,
I want to have the choice
To finally see my friends.

What can I do?
What can I say
To be free?
I got nothing to lose
But everything to gain,
I can’t explain.
What can I do?
What can I say
To be free?
I got nothing to lose
But everything to gain,
I can’t explain.
Track Name: Afterlife
Afterlife

I don't feel sad anymore
Something happened to me
I don't need anything more
For the first time of my life
My soul seems so appeased
This is the end of my strife

I won't grow old any longer
My face will stay the same forever
Wherever I go I wanna hear your laughter
Then I will wait for you forever

This is my very last song
I fill up the last page
Writing down there's nothing wrong
I will keep you in my heart
And keep you in my head
And I know this will be strong

And I won't be a father
Oh I won't be a lover
But I'll still be a dreamer
And I will see you later
Track Name: The Secret
The secret

I couldn't sleep today
'Cause there is something stuck in my mind
Something that I should say
And something that I cannot leave behind

Oh I wrote this song to you
And this situation for me is kind of new
I hope it won't bother you
All I want to say is

I'm opening my heart
Don't laugh at me it's taugh enough you know
Oh I feel something sharp
Like I've been stabbed with a knife I bleed alone

Oh I don't know what
I don't know what to do

I won't keep the secret
I'll say what keeps me away from my sleep
I hope I won't regret it
And that I will keep my feet like concrete
Track Name: I Don't Want Them To Come
I Don't Want Them to Come

I miss my brothers and my sister.
I'm so far away from them that it's hard to remember.
To remember the colour of their eyes,
To remember the very last sound of their cries.

And now I wonder
How it feels to be with them again.
If only the doctors
Would release me to smother my pain.

I haven't seen my mother for months.
I guess it's because I am the worst of her sons.
I've always asked them why they never came.
I got no answers but I suppose that they're ashamed.

And now I wonder
How it feels to be with them again.
If only the doctors
Would release me to smother my pain.

But I don't want them to come.
And I don't want them to go.
But I don't want them to come.
And I don't want them to go.
But I don't want them to come.
And I don't want them to go.
But I don't want them to come.
And I don't want them to go.

No, I don't want them to come...